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Friday, April 14th, 2006
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Sunday, July 24th, 2005
12:48 pm	Here we go... Its been a long time again since I wrote anything- so here goes... Tomorrow I have my catarac surgery (Yes it was a catarac) in my right eye. I cant say I am scared, but i am apprihensive at least. I do not know what this holds in store for me. Will I see alot better (I hope), Will I see worse? (I hope NOT), wil, it kill me? (dont think so, but ya never know) I leave my fate in the hands of the lord (Not that I am a religous person- but I need some one to help me out...) Anyway, thats whats up. I am SUPPOSE to leave for LA to see my old guitarist/ friend Mike next Weds. (August 3rd)- I cant wait! (Hopefully the eye will be 100% by then) I am NOT looking forward to a 5 hour plane ride though (Not big on flying- especially now a days) Again, I leave my fate in the hands of the "big guy"... I know nobody really reads this, but its a theropy I really should do more often.... Wish me luck- I'm gonna need it. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
4:52 pm	My wrestling story... I havent updated in a long time (alot of drama I dont wanna talk about...) But here is the story of me and my buddy Ron who was a pro wrestler. I met my friend when we both worked at a local car dealership. He was a huge body builder that had competed in contests around the state. We had small talked a few times when I mentioned that he should be a WWF wrestler or something- his eyes lit up and he said that is what he wanted to do. We were friends from that point. He trained in his basement with his brother he told me. I told him about a wrestling school that I had heard about a few hours away. He looked it up (It was The Monster Factory if any of you remember it, I think it was in Massilon, Oh or something) Anyway, he goes and checks the place out and next thing you know he is being trained by Dominic Denucci and Playboy Buddy Rose (I think, its been a long while). Knowing I am a big fan of wrestling after a few months, my buddy decides to invite me down to the school with him.I got to meet all the teachers and students and watch them go through all the drills- it was cool. Then after about an hour or so, the main teacher tells me to "get in there and ref a match". So, I hoped right in and ref'ed a 6 man tag match. (it was A LOT harder than you think!) After the match, the loosing team started a "beat down" on me..It was fun as Hell! A week later my buddy calls me and says he got a call from WWE- he has a match! He flew to wherever and "wrestled" The Earthquake (yes, this how long ago it was), and did the J-o-b. Well, they liked him alot and stared booking him every week to job to the "Superstar" of their choice. During this time, I was also going to the Monster factory and reffing on the weekends. Well, the time came where the teacher told me I was going to do a show at a local high school- it was fun, but again it is ALOT of work, and you dont realise how much a ref has to do with calling a match...anyway, in the regards to me reffing- this was the last time I did it. You see I wanted to be a "rock star" and this weekend stuff was cutting too much into my music career...So, I gracefully stepped aside in the Wrestling World (Who knows what coulda happened) So, my buddy is working pretty steadily for the WWF at this point, Then WCW calls him and starts booking him! He goes to Atlanta and starts working a bit. Now during all of this I hear the stories on all the wrestlers- some funny, some sad, some just disturbing. Finally, there is a show in Cleveland (WWF) and he invites me to go. I got to meet alot of the "Superstars", very briefly backstage. Most of the "Big Names" were segragated from the "regular" superstars, so I didnt meet Hogan or the Warrior or Macho Man. Now for some of the stories... 1- Nicoli Volkoff was the main Steroid dealer backstage. (More on that and my friend later) 2- Mr. Perfect was a huge alcoholic and coke head (he was my fave at the time too) 3- The Steiner Brothers were dicks and beat the Hell (legit) out of my buddy in the ring. 4- Lex Luthor was taken off a PPV during this time because he had done so many steroids the whites of his eyes had turned yellow. 5- All the "backstage" interview were done weeks in advance, sometimes even before a title had changed place, the person who would win it would cut a promo holding the belt they actually hadnt won yet. 6- Ric Flair and Ricky Steamboat worked out a whole "Run in" in Cleveland with my buddy standing right there absorbing it all. 7- Once while on a bus, a group of guys started harrassing the wrestlers calling them names and insulting them, when Arn Anderson and a few others got off the bus and beat the shit outta the guys. My friend saw Arn "Body Slam" a guy on the side walk....A legit tough guy. I am sure I can think of more, but I am kinda rushing this.. Anyway, so my buddy, who is now seen on Tv, and I decided to go to a WCW event and just watch it. We got some crappy seats in the balcony somewhere way up in the nosebleed seats, and before we even sit down people start swarming my freind- it was funny as Hell. Here we are in section Double Z row 99 and people are asking my buddy if he is doing a run in! It was really AMAZING to see how many people (Adults included) thought that 'Rasslin' was real....It was scary. So, anyway eventually we decided to walk around, because we couldnt watch the show, we were just surrounded by people. We walk down to the main concourse and The Security guys just let us walk right up to the front row! It was weird, they didnt say anything, they just moved the ropes and let us in. (Maybe it was the 10 or so people following us) So, we walk to the front row, and find there are no chairs (duh), so we just walk around the ring till we find some. ALl the while Sid Vicious is beating up Sting in the ring. At one point while Sid has Sting down, he points to my friend and says "You want some Pretty boy?" My friend just laughed it off. But of course this had everyone around us saying "Go kick his ass!" waiting for him to do the run in. (Why I will never know- my buddy was a JOBBER, what was he gonna do? Run in and get his ass kicked?) Anyway, so eventually my friend decides its time to try the Independent circut. He does great- He actually BEAT (went over) Jerry Lawler once, and Stan Lane a few times! He started to make a name for himself (He actually was in the top 300 one year in PWI's Top 500) Well, while my buddy was in the WWE he started to do steroids again. He had done them in the past, briefly, but had stopped. Once he was on the juice again, he started to act like a different person. He was a moody dick alot of the time. (So, I really believe in 'roid rage). Anyway, during an independent match, he torn his bicept away from the bone while doing a clothesline, and it rolled up like window shade to his shoulder. (Very similar to what happened to HHH's leg, but on his arm). He was out of Wrestling for about a year, While he was re-habbing, is when all the "Steroid " stuff started in the WWF. They started looking at alot of people, and eventually my buddy got arrested for dealing steroids. (He wasnt dealing, he just had so much of them, they charged him as such) He ended up doing like 9 months in jail- i never have spoken to him again (and its been hell, a good 13 years or so)He just became a real jerk once he stared the juice. And I couldnt deal with him anymore. So, thats the story in a nutshell....What do ya think? I aint making this up, but if you think I am full of shit- thats on you. 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Sunday, May 1st, 2005
3:36 pm	another week another mess.... Wassup? Where to begin? After all this time of my right eye being fucked up, I went back to my eye doctor and he is sending me to a specialist. He thinks I may have- get this- a catarac!!!! (at my age!fuck me sideways!) I cant believe it- If I have to have my lens in my eye removed, I will be bummed beyond belief. I guess if I look at the bright side, maybe I can get laser surgey for nothing now.... Band issues- We are getting shows and all, but 1- I am not happy in the direction we are going in (To pansy ass) I liked when we were more rock. 2- We finally got a new girl to sing for us- (see above) shes OK, but far from great. She's a great person though (and has a nice rack...LOL!) BUT- our last singer who is WAY great and HOTTER than HELL emailed me and wants to re-join the band. Granted this new girl isn't "IN" the band I guess, We have only played 1 show with her (until next weekend) I dont know what to do- I really want the first girl back in the group, but I dont want to piss on this other girl either- I guess it will come down to a vote. And sad to say- business is business..and gotta go with what will draw.... GREEN DAY THIS FRIDAY NIGHT! Taking my kids- should be interesting.... Ok, I am out like George Michael in s men's restroom.....Later Current Mood: blah Current Music: My Chemical Romance "I'm not ok (I promise)" (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
2:05 pm	Holy SHITE- I havent updated in a while So, whats up? Let me catch up on some of the shit going on in my world. I will offically take over my new position at work (promotion) this week sometime (maybe next at the latest) I hope I get me a fairly nice raise- (Not holding my breathe though- I know how how this place works) Next to that- The band is getting some gigs (Finally) I just cant seem to get any gigs close to home (Cleveland's East side) and its pissong me off. Everywhere we play LOVES us (not to brag, its true) For some reason, the bar owners on this side of town are dueche bags. Hopefully something SOON will break. What else? Still havent bought a comic in weeks- its bugging me, but since my van took a dump, I have been tapped out. And tryng to save some money for the dog I told the kids we will get (I already saw the dog and boy is it cute as hell!) Next to that- lets see... Planning on going to LA to see my old buddy and bandmate Mike in early August. I am stoked! And the beauty of it, it was my wifes idea (big props for THAT!) Unfortunatly, it means No Wiz World Chicago this year again, but I had to choose- maybe next year Bendis boarders! I really want to meet some of those peeps! Anywho sorry this is so shotgun effect- I am just in 12 places at once.... Still havent written shit- I will I promise.................. See ya Current Mood: Sundays bore me... Current Music: Listening to Kevin Smith interview Frank Miller and Robert R (Comment on this)
Friday, March 25th, 2005
5:14 pm	Good Fried day Wassup? Still feeling like shite- but a little better, thanks for all the acrds and letters (Yeah, right) Anywho- Its good friday and I am sitting here watching the wheels go round and round......I really love to watch em roll...Sorry- a Lennon moment. Waiting to hear what is gonna go down tonight. My son is staying over a buddy's house and my daughter is trying to make arrangments to do the same at one of her friends houses. Then the wife and I can actually-gasp- have a night alone!!!! *DANT DA DAAAAAAAA* <------ Dramatic music for effect. Not that either of us feel like taking on the world as we've both been sick with this damned cold. but it would be nice to go out and do something as a couple, instead of "Mom and Dad"..ya know? Speaking of this cold- I had like NO voice at ALL last night at band practice- I hope I can sing a week from tomnorrow- or shit will hit the fan.I'm sure I will be ok. Just my luck though, ya know? We need the band to get more gigs on this side of town- I hate driving a hour to shows- it stinks and none of my friends want to drive that far either.....Oh well. I noticed I finally have a few "friends" signed up on my journal now- Whoo Hoo! I like everyones blogs I read and usually get a good chuckle from them. Its pretty cool when you talk to people with similar intrests when none of your friends are into the same things you are. Ok, I am off to surf the web for naked pics of Bea Arthur.......HAHAHAHAHA! Current Mood: Its the cold meds man! Current Music: The Tempations- "Aint to proud to beg" (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
5:37 pm	My dose iz sduffy.... I cant believe I got this cold back AGAIN!~ This is day 3 now of it's return and I HATE IT! I cant fucking BREATHE! Anway- so this guy that I have seen but never really talked to at work quits the other day, and I hear he goes a little "nutty". I hear that he came back with his brother and was looking around and shit- just weord stuff- all over allegedely some chick that works there (shes a piece of work too boy) So anyways, so I am home yesterday, watching the news when they say "Eastlake man goes nuts and starts to ramage in his neighborhood"...I was like "Eastlake is where I grew up,and is but a city away, what happened?" Here it is this dude from work...he went mental and caught his house on fire, his car on fire and then started smashing his neighbors windows out and pouring gas in trying to start more fires. WOW! The scary part is, is that my sister is the person who does HR at work, and she was the one who had to get this guys resignation and shit. She's scared now- Luckly dude is in the pokey and wont get out soon. (We'll see) Ok, I cant breathe...im outtie Current Mood: I CANT BREATHE Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
5:55 pm	Good grief.... Whats the shizzle my nizzle? Well, the hits keep comin kids... Mom called last night in hysterics- She had to put Frazier (her dog) to sleep. His kidneys had failed and there was nothing the vet could do. This came outta NOWHERE- the dog was fine, a little lathargic, but seemed ok. (He was only 9) So, I had the terrible job of telling my kids that their favorite pet was dead. That sucked SO bad- but I had to be straight with them. They both cried alot, but are ok today (for the most part). My mother on the other hand is a wreck- this dog was her life. She cooked for it, walked it all the time (twice a day!)everything- it was her baby. I hope she can pull out of this. She said she feels like her heart is broken. And although I was never a big fan of the dog- he was a good dude, and will be missed dearly. RIP Frazier..... On to the next- Did I write about the gig last weekend with the band? I cant rememeber- oh well. I think I did. Its a blur. Next show- April 2nd! Loose Moose! I have to start fixing my script I am turning in to Noble (At Ronin), I just havent had the time, ya know? Oh well. I am outie.... Peace Current Mood: Poor dog...Poor mom Current Music: No music- just quiet (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
12:47 pm	WEAK END! What a week (to say the least) Wenesday- At work the guy who USED to work FOR me (before I left), who is now considered my "equal" -Yeah right- and I got into it. I fuckin HATE this guy! He is a very militant black dude who has a damned chip on his shoulder and doesnt like me either. Whatever... So, he starts about me putting something (a skid) too close to his desk. A place I have been putting skids for 10 years that I have been there (when it was MY desk) I tell him it wont be here long and he says (in a threatening way) "I done told you once to move that shit!" To which I retort (of course) "What are YOU gonna do about it Greg?" (Did I mention I hate this guy?) he says "Oh, YOU'LL see!" I start laughing and say "Oh, so your trying to THREATEN me?- Nice" So I get my boss yadda yadda.....Next day they "verbally warn" him. Whatever. Now I find out I may get a "promotion" out of all this.....Go figure. Got a gig tonight, we havent practiced as a group in 2 weeks- should be....ineteresting. Should have a good crowd though- alot of people say they are coming out. I hope we enetertain them. Even THE WIFE is coming out for a while! Wow. she never comes to shows (she has to work early on Sundays) I hope we do well. I should go back over the songs a few more times before I go. Also- yesterday the kids found the neighborhood stray cat Dead in our backyard. SHIT! They were upset. I ahvent gone and "scooped" it up yet, its in a really hard place to grab it and to be honest- it is kinda sad. I hated that cat, but I didnt want it to die in my backyard for me to pick up. What happened to it? I dunno. It got into my garbage all the time, so I know it wasnt starving...maybe it was just old or got hit by a car- I dunno. I just know now I gotta go pick this thing up and do SOMETHING with it...Joy! After reading Kubiaks (Jims) Blog, I realize he has at least A FEW people reading his blog. I dont think I have ANYONE (next to Jim- hey jim!) I wonder how I can change that? Oh well.... Laters Current Mood: Fingers crossed Current Music: various crap for the gig tonight (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 5th, 2005
6:16 pm	Shit the bed... I have a TERRIBBLE sinus issue going on. I CANT BREATHE GOD DAMNED IT! This is making making me MORE lazy than I HAVE been. (great) just sent Noble from Ronin studios the synopsis for FAN BOYS, I guess I am going to try and turn my "screen play" into a comic book- I like the script, I just need to "tweek" it and make it into a "comio". What else? The band plays again next weekend, hopefully I will feel MUCH better by then, or we will sound like SHITE! Next to that- I dunno. Have been fretting about alot of stuff, that I shouldn't be lately- Gotta stop that shit. What can I say- once a worry wart- always a worry wart. Ok, Im done.......... See ya. Current Mood: DAMNED COLD Current Music: none (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
3:30 pm	I know I dont write enough Just a quick entry- Had a show last night- not too bad. Crowd was hot and cold. A couple of broads whipped out their Sweater meat- that was fun. Feeling like I should be working on writing something, but I have to take a shower and get to moms for dinner...........Ehh. Another wasted weekend. Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: Quadrophenia (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
1:05 pm	Updated finally So, here we go. I have been back to METAL SEAL officially a week now, and I gotta say it still sucks ass. Like I said the pieces change, but the game stays the same. I really hate the guy who USED to work FOR me, who now is my EQUAL (yeah, right) The guy is stupid as fuck and is about as sharp as a cue ball. I dont know if mytenure will be long this time- we'll see. FIANLLY got VARIED SCARIES this week (well the copy I BOUGHT online. I am still waiting for my comp copies) Overall I didnt really like the book. It was kinda ehhhh. My story, I thought was good, but I didn't like it too much in print. I didnt realize I had put so many vulgarities in. And it just came across "hackneyed" to me, Although a few people say they like it. I don't see it being any kind of spring board to a writing career, but its a start and every journey needs a first step right? Now if I could get off my lazy ass and do more writing, I would be pleased- I just have to do it and not critque everything too much. I may not be Bendis!, but I can write and have done so a LONG time now.... Tonight me and the wife actually CAN go out with our friends Vince and Sherrie. BUT (of course) Kathy is sick and says she may not want to go now. MOTHER FUCKER! Always our luck. Also got a cryptic email from Nickie (our girl singer in PLAN 8) Saying she needs to "talk" to us in the band. She also is not returning phone calls or emails.....I can GUESS what this means. If she bails I will be SO pissed I wont know what to do! I am so SICK of these women fucking over this band (not that ceratin people in the band are innocent on this), but GOD DAMN I just want to get some gigs and play!!!! I think ALOT of these chicks think they show up, sing and go to shows- NO theres a little thing called WORK involved in any BAND! It's NOT an easy thing- I guess I will update when I find out... Story of my life- One step forward, stumble back 3.... Current Mood: restless Current Music: Eh- No music- Sports talk this weekend! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
5:28 pm	Here we gooooo again. So, I won't start at METAL SEAL again till Monday giving me yet a few more days to enjoy doing nothing. I bought and watched METALLICA Some kind of Monster today, and it brought back ALOT of memories from being in LOST NATION. Every fight, every high and low etc...(Not that I am in any way comparing my little local band to the monster that is METALLICA, but a band is a band,no?) The kids are outside playing in that nasty white water from the sky known as snow (I HATE this area- I want WARMTH dammit!!!!) Anywho- thats about it. I think I am gonna do some drawing tonight get motivated again. I HAVE to get something going in the art feild.....My lazy ass. Current Mood: lazy Current Music: METALLICA (of course) (Comment on this)
Monday, January 24th, 2005
6:47 pm	Long time no see... Well, with this site being downfor a while and alot of shit happening in my life (Or my laziness) I havent updated in a while, so here's whats up.... Well, it's official- I go back to Metal Seal sometime this week. I am just waiting for the call to tell me when. It's funny, I NEVER would have thought this would happen AGAIN, but here I am. Like I said before, I hate it there, but it's the Hell I know... Got the demo disc back and am now starting to get it out- there were some serious flubs left on the disc,but fuck it. At this point I just want to get some shows dammit! Just found out that VARIED SCARIES is finally coming out (well, available online at least) I like my story in there alot, but I really wish that BASTARD SQUAD would one day see the light of day too. I am just happy SOMETHING that I worte is now in PRINT! I can pimp that at shows. Speaking of...I have had the last week off and I wrote about 5 pages of dialog- THAT SUCKS. If I want to ever be a writer, I gotta do better than that! I swear if I am off tomorrow, I will do alot of writing. Kathy had her birthday, I think she liked the presents (who knows). Next, Lauryn turns 12 (Holy Shit- my baby is gonna be a teenager soon....) I need a drink...... See ya! Current Mood: Thats a change,huh? Current Music: PLAN 8 Demo disc (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
8:08 pm	My answers from jims thing.... 1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE? San Diego,CA 2. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?socks? 3. IF YOU COULD HAVE CHOSEN YOUR NAME WHAT WOULD IT HAVE BEEN? Seven 4. THAT LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? Velvet Revolver 5. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? dunno 6. WHERE IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? Rumplestiltskin Toys 7. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING? between 5-6am 8. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE?microwave 9. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY?food 10. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT WHAT WOULD IT BE? I do. Wish I played guitar better though 11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?Black and purple 12. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? Green Eggs and Ham 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Fall 14. IF YOU HAD A SUPER POWER WHAT WOULD IT BE? to move you... 15. TATTOO? not yet 16. CAN YOU JUGGLE? yeah....right. 17. THE ONE PERSON FROM THE PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO? Keith Moon 18. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DAY? Saturday 19. WHAT IS IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? No trunk..van 20. SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? HAMBURGER!!!!! 21. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU WILL EMAIL WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?n/a 22. Who IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?n/a 23. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM?Jim clarkes blog 24. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTER?Homer Simpson 25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MEAL? Mongolian Beef )PF Chang style!) (Comment on this)
7:46 pm	It hit me today... So my asshole boss comes up (almost as a afterthought) and says. "We're almost out of money. Friday may be it" "Oh,fuck" is the only thing that went through my head. "this is really gonna happen. I am gonna be out on my ass" Here I am 36 years old and about to lose my job. With absolutly NO prospects on the horizon. Why did I leave my last job? Yes, I was miserable there, but GOD DAMN it was still a steady income. I sent out a bunch of resumes today when I got home...let's pray something shakes free from that. I want to forget about this and jus live life- but the constant grinding of my teeth keeps me alerted to the shit hanging over my head... I keep saying that maybe this is a good thing and I will come out ahead, but I really don't feel that way right now...I will keep you updated, I guess. The recording went pretty ok, alot of flubs. Most can be easily fixed. Nickie (our female singer) bailed before we were done, but her and the boys are going back tomorrow for vocal tracks on her and their songs. I only had one lead in the session (vocal wise) good ol' "Super Freak"... I AM Rick James Bitch! I wasn't too happy with my vocal, but fuck it, it's only a demo.Hopefully it will be good enough to get us some gigs )That is even if I can STAY in the band with my job situation and all...) Current Mood: crushed Current Music: none (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
6:07 pm	Band recording So, I am just about ready to leave. The band I am in (Plan 8-from outer space) is recording at least PART of our demo tonight- should be....interesting. I am not sure who has actually been in a studio before, but it kinda sucks. I hope we all play the songs flawlessly to save some time- It wont happen, but I can dream,can't I? Anywho- the job situation is no better. I REALLY could use a break. I wish I had enough cash to start my own business. Funny story- @ 12 years ago when I was working at a comic store, a friend of mine who worked there and myself decided we wanted to open our own comic shop. I found a great location and we swere set to go (well, except getting the $$$ together- my buddy was the the main guy for that. At the last minute he decides he cant (which means his wife told him no). No later than a few months after this, a comic shop opened right where I wanted to put ours (well, actually across the street, but you get the idea). That comic shop owner has now done GREAT business there, his name is Jim and he USED to own the comic shop that Brian Bendis worked at downtown...weird. Anyway, a few years later my buddy bought his OWN shop. Never asked me to be part of it, and it soon tanked. (It was in a BAD location) Anyway- thats the story for tonight...I gotta roll. Current Mood: Ahh memories. Current Music: Velvet Revolver (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
2:44 pm	Purity test I stole this from Kubiak's Blog... [img]http://www.phyde.plus.com/purity400.html[/img] (Comment on this)
2:14 pm	In a deep depression Well, It seems that the one job I thought I could fall back on (Metal Seal) isnt going to happen. Not that I was happy about going back, I wasnt, it was just a job I knew and I like MOST of the people there. Now I have to go back to Rumple Toyd tomorrow and be even MORE miserable than I have already been. I don't know how much more I can take... I am so stressed out I could just scream. And now it seems the pressure is getting to the wife too. She kind of jumped on me today, amking me feel worse than I already do. I don't blame her, but I just don't need to hear what a mess we're in- I know. What am I going to do? I am so confused I don't know where to turn. In one instance I want to go and get my shit together, in the next depression washes over me and I just want to die. (not that i would do anything stupid,mind you- its just an expression) So, what do I do? I wish I knew............. Current Mood: too much shit... Current Music: none (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
10:31 am	Holy Shite balls! Ok, I havent updated in a while. I have been shell shocked by everything that has happened, and I think I need to clear my soul right now. So, Xmas was nice, the kids were spoiled as always and everyone seemed happy. Unfortunalty, things all changed at work 2 days later. I found out they are closing the stores and locking the doors (cool that rhymed, And I will soon be out of a job (in @ a month) this REALLY REALLY REALLY sucks. I busted my balls for these fuckers, left a job that, although I hated, I was at for close to 10 years and I knew how to do it well, for this job that "showed alot of potential". Now I am a lame duck working for a place I know is putting me out on my ear in a few weeks (days?) I dont WANT to work for these fuckers now knowing that they fucked me and I was putting in all these crazy hours for SHIT ! Gid DAMNED get more and more PISSED as I write this! They paid me SALARY to work the busy holiday season telling me that I would make up for it come spring. "Go ahead and take 4 day weekends", I was told...........Mother fuckers. I have a glimmer of hope (if you can call it that) to go back to my old job. i hate that too, but i have to do SOMETHING with my sad ass life. I will find out more tomorrow, and if I feel up to it i will update this page that noone reads.............*sigh* So, New Years I sat on the couch eating "Chicken in a Bisquits" and watching South Park with my son. My wife had to work early and went to bed and my daughter crashed (per usual). So, me and Zak watched the Ball drop, then fell asleep. Yippie! Now I sit here on the 2nd all depressed and not knowing what to do. I REALLY want to get my shit together, but I seem to fail at everythig I do... Oh well, I guess I will go play PLAYSTATION2 some more and piss my life away further.... Current Mood: sad Current Music: none (Comment on this)